Dave we celebrated yours and nancys 30th yesterday at your local pub . The wealden of course so many of your friends came to celebrate darling all your brothers and 4 of your sisters . I was very bitter sweet darling I had to be there for Nancy but it wasn't right with you not there. I felt guilty all day for laughing , I know you want me to be happy but I cant without you . I love you my darling for ever and ever xxxxxxxx